Ah Lan Story

29 09 2008

Yesterday 29 Sept,
It’s 25 years living in this world and definetly I have lots to said. Today was indeed a busy day I started with having a  short sharing with Lin Dee a writer for The Star Publication someone that daughter wedding where I seen back many old buddies and person I hate. Although today is been a tiring day but when I think back on Ah Lan who once always worry complaining about her daughter future life after marriage have now come to an end. In many said Ah Lan is the main attraction as you never see her put on lipstick, eye liner and make ups, contact lens and beautiful chinese dress and lastly beautiful rod steward hair. Well I guess sometimes certain things will changes us in a way that we ourself don’t notice that we look nice in this way. And looking at ah lan her daugther voon chi eyes, I guess I could tell that ah lan have learn to let go.


Bio for Rinpoche

27 09 2008

On thursday, I met up with Paul for lunch to update on matters about KD. It been sometimes where we ain’t getting anywhere with the articles for the website and yet another big project for KD is coming where we intent to publish a biography book about rinpoche. Although I have lots ideas in mind, but I can’t actually juice it out . Sometimes I rather feel I am not doing any good for KH or KD. I did try to contribute time and effort to KH and KD seriously not because of any return. Last month I recieve some dharmma gift from rinpoche, for helping KD, and I am happy not because I have gift, but rejoice that Rinpoche is happy. I did not keep all the gift rinpoche gave to me, I gave a small gold lama tsongkhapa statue which rinpoche gave it to me to my father for his new car, although I really do like to keep it in my own new car, see I am practicing  giving but yet I feel rather useless at time, I really want to make it for lamrim classes but I have to work on friday.

Every single day…

12 09 2008

It been 5 years since emelda left us silently, It’s been 5 years her voice have gone absent, It’s been 5 years my shoulder have not been wet by her tears, It’s been 5 years I walk the by the sea alone, It’s been 5 years I missed emelda every single day… Although this 5 years she not around, but I just feel when I am  sad it seems she appears to me to lend me her shoulder as I did when she still around. I wonder what will us be if emelda is still here. Every single day I try to dream of her so deeply but it just doesn’t come through.

After some times

11 09 2008

Once I did think of not blogging and close this down, but today I was happy I did not close this down. In fact I didn’t blog, so people will read all craps I am typing but I blog so I could voice out my unsatisfaction about life through words to myself and those who are lucky to view it. Months after month I was struggling up and down from emotion, to trying to convience my parent to let me drive the new car I got. Now I am driving so what more can I said. Well, I am glad I made through this time of my life. So till than..